A love letter is written and destroyed; a mother disapproves of her son’s sexual orientation and desperately wants to prevent his gay lover from having any contact with him when he becomes seriously ill.
The lover is a married man with two children, holds a high position within the church, and needs to know his new lover’s true feelings. He stands to lose everything – wife, children, and his career. But if he knew for sure that this was a real and valued relationship then he might just be prepared to pay that price.
Hypocrisy reigns as members of the church hierarchy take steps to prevent what they see as a looming scandal. Never mind that some of them harbour secrets about their own sexual orientation, they choose to put God before their gay inclinations. They are career men prepared to sacrifice their personal feeling for advancement within the sanctity of the church and take a dim view of anyone who isn’t prepared to do the same. A scandal such as this can damage the reputation of the church, they feel, and that cannot be allowed to happen.
Can I be Gay and Christian?
This is a question that few gay romance novels tackle; to be both gay and Christian for many is considered to be a contradiction in terms, a forbidden love. They will say there is no gay God and there can be no gay church, but real life is not like that. Some Christians are gay and some of those decide to work for the church. This gay love story examines the dilemmas they face. Must they choose to conceal their true feelings in order to pursue a their calling within the church?
Surely, all Christians have a right to worship their God and live their lives in a compassionate and caring way according to their Christian beliefs, despite their sexual orientation? And even if they work for the church.
The church professes itself to be modern and all embracing, so when one of their flock has a gay awakening, a realisation that his marriage to a woman is no more than a façade for him to hide behind, then surely he has every right to think that this will be both accepted and tolerated. The reality is, however, that instead of acceptance and tolerance, he now faces hostility, not just from his superiors in the church, but also from family and friends. None of this helps him as he tries to deal and come to terms with what is already a complicated and delicate situation.
He has found true love, but the relationship is balanced on a knife edge; serious illness intervenes and the family, with a less than sympathetic perspective on the situation, get control, with one objective in mind: to end this fledgling relationship.
The easy option is to kowtow to the pressure of the church, return to the security of a straight relationship with his wife, and leave his gay lover to his plight. Certainly that is consensus against him – hardly a Christian posture!
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~ Yesterday Rachel got a recording of the conversation in the post. Word for word she could listen to what I said to Terry. Victor wrote a note to say it showed I was a serial liar, I had always slept around, and Terry was just one amongst many.”
Charles said nothing to contradict what was said. It suited him to be silent.
“To make a secret recording and use it in that way was so wrong,” went on James “and it is not like Terry.” ~
~At the same time a meeting was taking place in bishop’s study.
“I cannot see why we are discussing this,” the archdeacon was obviously irritated. “There is a full agenda to get through.”
“I just wanted the matter finalised,” said the bishop, somewhat apologetically.
“Well, as far as I am concerned he is out of our hands,” replied the archdeacon. “He chose to resign, and that is that!” ~